What makes photographer Phillip Toledano’s work interesting isn’t necessarily his normal subjects. He is a talented photographer that has created photo series around various subjects, but one of his newer projects may be the most eye-catching. Phillip focused his camera on his own life and his newborn daughter, documenting the the entire first year and a half of his experience as a father. Whether you’re a parent or not, I think you’ll find his work (and personal transformation) enthralling.
The photo series is called The Reluctant Father. Phillip wanted to document his time adjusting to the arrival of his daughter.
“I think it’s fair to say that like a lot of men, I was neither ready, nor vastly enthused.”
Over time, his misery changed to joy (although his humor and unique point of view was consistent).
He was never interested in having kids, even though Phillip vaguely liked them in the abstract sense.
So when he was expecting his first baby girl, Loulou, to be born it was a drastic change in his life.
“I just felt weird. How could I be a father? Wasn’t that something that happened to other people? To adults?”
He even felt as if his wife, Carla, disappeared after Loulou was born. He didn’t necessarily like being a father at first. It’s not that he didn’t love Loulou, it just was hard.
He began to transform, over the years, from photographer to father. He began to find a real connection with his daughter.
In the end, he started out taking pictures of Loulou as if she was just a part of nature… and then you could see him embrace her as his daughter through his photos.
In the end, the photos aren’t the focus, but the relationship that blossomed between father and daughter. Hesitation, fear and reluctancy are probably in the mind of every new parent. However, Phillip showed that growing into the role of a father will happen… no matter how long or hilarious the process is. It’s different for every parent.
Check out Phillip Toledano’s online portfolio to see more of his work. You may not look at parenthood or photographer the same way again.
Source: TheReluctantFather.com by Phillip Toledano via Slate
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